21.11.10

one whole existance, neatly packaged

this is the album of my mother's sister, beate schubert.

















(larger sizes and plenty more here)


beate schubert died age 18 when quite literally falling off a mountain.


flicking through this album sends me through a wild tumble of the strangest sensations. i feel nostalgia for something i didn't even come close to experiencing. i feel intrusive as she couldn't have possibly have known of my existance and yet here i am, looking at her life, and i think i know all about her because my perception of her is limited to what i gather from this album - my grandmother, understandably, barely talked about her - but she had her own secrets, unexpected thoughs, unobserved moments too, just like me, just like you. i feel very sober, because you bet she didn't expect to die right until it happened.


but all of these are hardly new thoughts. which isn't a reason against expressing them though.

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